Adoption is a winding road. It takes your heart one way, and then another, and yet still another. There are hills and valleys too. You are so excited one day, weepy the next day because its Christmas and she isn't here to experience it with us. Then the next day you get angry for a plethora of reasons. Jeremy and I have been walking this road for a year and a half. Our heart strings have been tugged by so much.
The road to adoption for us began a year and a half ago. We started down the road to adopting from Lesotho. It was perfect! All the signs seemed to point that direction! So, we started walking the road that was paperwork, home visits and fundraising. We were on the road to adopting our daughter.
A lot of time has passed since that summer in 2013. A lot has happened, or not happened as it were. We were very excited about the prospect of having a referral within a short-ish amount of time. As with all adoptions, things don't go as planned all the time. There are match meetings that don't happen. There is unrest in the government that makes things difficult. Then, there are serious conversations you have with your spouse, wondering if we are walking the road we were supposed to walk. Well......we definitely believe we are on the right road in regards to adoption. But, we decided we were not on the right road regarding where our daughter was. Thus, another twist in the road. We have reset our course.......TO CHINA!!!! That's right. Your read that right, we believe our daughter is in China. We have added our name to the China Waiting Child program at our agency. This means, our daughter will have some sort of special need, according to China. We will be the ones to decide if she has a special need, or not. :)
With this decision, we will be starting the paper chase all over again! It will be a busy couple months but we are confident in all of it! Please pray for us as we go through this again.
Until next time........
